Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Today is kind of emo and sianz .......!
Dont feel like dancing, feel like stopping....
after all i always not here not there..
My mum is sick.. really worry for her.
look at my dad getting older and older everyday...
what the hell am i doing ? spending all the money on dancing & thing i like to do..
i feel really bad. I dont know if u guys can understand this feeling anot.
i dont born in rich family... but i always get to do whatever i love.
when 17 / 18.. spend bloody alot on cosplay...
den spend on jamming, i bought a bass guitar & amp & finally form a band which dun even last more the 6 month... pref once with my band at some NUS jrock fest...
den learn vocal @ hai die (music forest) for 1 yr.. the fee really cost me a bomb.
didnt even get a chance to be vocalist. (got lah, for 2 or 3 jamming session).
i wanted to get in laselle or nafa but too bad... i dun have the "ming" for it.
no money & no cert.
Been dancing for so long.. where am i standing now ?
Why am i making myself suffer like tat ?
im 25 le.... how ? the road infront is like a maze........ so helpess
i hope im 18 or 19 again, kok & slack with kuek they all every sat at orchard..
nothing much to worry.. so care-free.
I HATE myself being so E.M.O...... STOP THINKING SO MUCH.
i think my "aunt" coming huh....
im a fish and i will be fine.
* at this such a emo moment.. my dog fart in the room... kaoz. spoil mood sia.
*feel kind of empty*
After that day, me and DnD girls KTV session..... i sang "i for you" by luna sea...
i miss my bass guitar.. but i dun i have time to pick up... HAHA
♥ the world will turn WILD.
1:14 AM
