Sunday, April 29, 2007
Tired... Dont know wan to go Bellydance anot... Today nv go means miss 2 class.... T____TaMunhwa's sis finally got car le.... erm.. Toyota Vios... !!Sianz Alan got his pay yesterday.. 1500.. so much rite... ! Last few week i just lent him 400, And he tell me he onli can return me 100... sweat drop.. another 300 mean no need to return liao.He always like tat one. always like to make me happy first.. in the end he onli think for himself... Carry on like that when can i save enough for schooling.. sianz... no mood.. just because i lent him money i left nuts in my bank. HE still dare to tell me.. he gonna off on the tue den go levi shop buy at least 2 jean, the jean he aim not cheap at all.. 180 plus plus for 1? I cant go SHOPPING cos of him and now he got money he dun think of returning me.. I have NOTHING much LEFT to wear to OFFICE le lor. I FEEL DAMM DAMM DAMM sianz. is like all my money went to him and nv come back.. and not small amonut .. IF i realli write down everything he lent from me.. is like hitting 3k ?I just hate myself...... should i just sms him tell him off... ?with him around i realli cant do anything.... !! everyday not enough sleep.... yesterday i talk to him le.... is like no use... he onli say " I miss u mah..... " i bet he just onli cos he's lonely... so he meet me... i told him i need to save money for school, i wan to improve give my parent a good life and not letting my parent worry for my future... he say "I will help you de..." .. I tell him " U cant even save urself... and u wan to save me.. even I myself still need to fork out and save u lor... " His face turn BLACK... but do u think i care ?Moodless
♥ the world will turn WILD.
11:13 AM
Saturday, April 28, 2007
sianz... feeling quite bad today...
hardly sleep cos of my blocking nose n bad coughing....
wed i onli can fall asleep around 3 plus and yesterday is like 4am Dont know is it because im sick so im feeling bad... i feel so unloved ? tired....
wanna go visit doctor but need to come back to office, not sure tomolo if there's any clinic is open..
Todays class dun feel like going.. having slight headache (again?)
About yesterday 's reggea class.. *Cough* To me... is like abit waste money..
ok, im not saying im good or the class is too easy for me.. is the timing wise.
My hiphop Adv class ends @ 9pm, and that reggea class start @ 9pm.. actually they should push back the time abit.
If you dance before and went to alot dance class before rite, you would know tat seblom dance class will end on the dot / Sharp. Hiphop Adv ends at 930pm.. den reggea ends at 1015pm..
And we onli DO.. Hip wave & Hit.. Front / Back / Right / Left.... !!
When she Say end le.. I was like staring at the clock ?! 1015pm !!
After the whole class my head' s ache !
When i reach home, i trying to do Japanese style knee-Down.. Den i "Oh shit.."
I cant go down completely.. *Sweat* ... my BUTT cant touch the FLOOR !!
...... ok... Realli must workhard..... !!! Sweat drop...
Ok..... i truly believe that my face look fierce and unfriendly...
♥ the world will turn WILD.
11:44 AM
Friday, April 27, 2007
heng.... today's solo routin i didnt give up the half way, i can make it !!!Carol told me that its a breakthough / improvement for me.. !! And she know i can do it or give out more its just my mind set problems... ! I was realli happy when carol tell me so much.. she keep telling me "U can do it one, it just u are so affected by ppl around you.. dun look at them, and learn how to dun bother about them.. just let them look.. now can see tat you got and more confident !! ~ " She realli give me alot alot of comment, if i wan to compare she and patrick ~like where i do wrong, where i didnt give in more... (maybe cause i pay tat kind of money)Next week solo again, she wanted to train us until our skin very very thick ~ !!Now i realli must think le ~ i dun wan to waste tat kind of money n time... and i still keep myself in the box !! I must come out and show ppl !! K tired liao ~~ realli happy !!! Oh yah... my dad brough KFC !!! and i eaten.. WAHAHAHAHAHAHA ~
♥ the world will turn WILD.
1:11 AM
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
was reading my past blogging.. Sound like all very sad... I need to change,
cannot be so Pessimistic & depresstion...
Today at least can heard abit from my voice.. Suppose to have Dinner with brian but was to tired to meet him.
Ok today is wed le and tomolo is thur, I still not sure wat to wear tomolo.. how ?
The song : Mo'Fia by Da pump sound abit indian.. so was thinking of matching my hip scarf.. Tomolo must show the power n effort i always done in patrick class.. I can dance better in patrick class (maybe i got more confident in his step)
I found tat among our own dance mate got alot problem, like to compare among our own who is good.?
Is tat important?
No matter wat i will my realli best from now..... and make myself sweat realli alot... !!!
♥ the world will turn WILD.
1:30 PM
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
On the friday i already start to have headache, Nowaday got alot people fall sick...
Den sat i start to have cough, *TA DA* SUN finally lost my voice.. Mon i still need go to work cos i need to clear my thing (Already reach between TAT day le.) But at the afternoon i went home to visit doctor.
HE have given me 2 day MC.. BUT today i still need to go to work sianz... life is like tat.. But today got horrible thing happen to me which i V.O.M.I.T (all the water) end up i still going home.. Irene ask me to take good care of myself today so tomolo i can come back to clear my work & stay back for OT... T____T I been sleeping the whole afternoon... abit giggly.. Days flies very fast today already is tue and tomolo is wed.. coming Thur need to dance SOLO ~ now i still dun know wat to wear..
I lend alan alot money (again) realli worry he wont return me by month end. Nowaday i realli feel very tired of him.. I dun own him anything, he always say he already treat me very well le but i just cant feel it. On the sat we went shopping @ suntec (i passed him $200) we are looking around for his D&D's outfit. He like a shirt from polo jean which cost $179.. we shopping so many place n shop he still like the shirt from polo jean. In the end he borrow $180 from me to buy tat. you know wat... tat day from his top until shoes all branded - GAP shirt, BALL watches ($2k), Levi jeans, leather shoes.
I ask him "hey wah you from top to below all branded hor.. how about me ah? " his reply "U no need branded wat...U ok mah like tat.. you got me also mah".. sweat drop.. he's selfish until like tat, i realli dun know how to carry on with him. realli tired... all he can think is himself.. he ever told me before.. as a human cannot dun have branded cos ppl will look down on you de. And to me is other thing...
REALLI tired liao..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
6:40 PM
Sunday, April 22, 2007
Very tired today.... was sick and having headache in the morning n afternoon.
went to AMK hub around 3pm to look for my fren's present, after tat went dancing class @ ANJ.
The step today is COOL ~ hahaha i like it alot. Got floor work, is like mopping the floor.... ^^;;
After the class went for dinner with the rest of the dancemate @ Vil'age..
Finally pass my fren her present... !! is a top with a small flower below (just wondering she like it anot)..
Around 8 plus we went off, i meeting nicole they all for a ktv session.. Didnt have a good voice today cos was having cough... U___Ua .. so didnt sing very well.. !!
At the Ktv session was very fun !! After the session around 10, we walk around and take lots lots n lots photo... we took around 70 plus crazy photo... I found yuanyi is a very sweet person, hahaha she's plucking flower everywhere ? hohoho ~
They are the sweetest group of fren ever ~ >__<
♥ the world will turn WILD.
12:50 AM
Saturday, April 21, 2007
Today's class @ music Forest not bad.....
Sianz i think i have weak point in dancing........
1 - No confident ( Everytime have )
2 - Dance nv put in effort ( i agree)
My fren went to see the class i having just now, she nv try the class onli sit there n watch..
After class she tell me 2 new (1 gd, 1 bad) i heard the bad first... I always dance without effort.. She 's not the first person to say tat .. i always have this very bad habit, i need to quit it if not i realli cant grow...
No confident maybe cos of last time, always being look down by people.. Was scare of the way ppl look at me...
For the Musical Nite's 3G item has already choose ppl le.. abit sad... This i cant blame ppl.. cos if in the first place i realli realli push myself.. trying dance everything with strength maybe i will have a chance...
But i choose to hide myself in the box......
♥ the world will turn WILD.
1:42 AM
Friday, April 20, 2007
Yesterday Class was quite stress.. Carol have teach us a routine and we need to dance solo..
my mind jam suddenly for afew time, carol ask me "Why ?" i tell her " Im nervous..."
"Nervous is some-word which can kill you on the STAGE.. You cannot be bother by the people around you."
Today i brining my fren visit / take a look at our class @ MF.. Wondering wat kind of comment she will give.. haha ~ Today cannot have practice after class (unless another studio is empty.)
>________<
Carol wanted to put a solo showcase by next thur with COSTUME !!! OMG.
I scare i cant make it... haiz also wondering Have carol choose the dancer for 3G item le mah.
Sheila's item also havent choose .... I scare they nv choose me, cos is like hard to have chance to perf on this kind of show....
♥ the world will turn WILD.
2:10 PM
Monday, April 16, 2007
Yesterday sleep around 4am ? Was watching "Ying yang lu"...
Next week will start the training for the street Festival.. The date fall on the 2 june same as Jrock.. Worry haha the bellydance will be starting @ around 3 pm. i think jrock will be at nite.. Later they all saw me in bellydance's suit ? O_______Oa *sweat drop.* And its fall on the same day as Studio wu's musical nite (Enove) also. I dun know i will get in the pref not.. But i think sheila item got more chance.. For carol's i dun think so.. I dance for so long now den start to grow more and more confident.... Sianz.. haha ..
Dance - I dun know i should cut down after my 3G mah or wat... cos dance is just a endless thing.. And will nv know the result...
I link Xiaoyun's blog le.. YOu guys can check out.. a realli pretty lady who is realli talented ~ Got alot nice nice photo... ^^ i realli like her photo ~
♥ the world will turn WILD.
12:12 PM
Sunday, April 15, 2007
Hehehe.. Nice tat-too? i wanna have one... but alan wont let me have it de.. sianz..
Today pri school gathering is quite fun lah.. We went to Pub @ Selegie, Reach home @ around 3.30am. gathering got me, Anna, kunda, Wanfen, ryan (wanfen's bf), John, weide, Fang & Zhiwei..
We have dinner @ V8, After dinner we all accompany J to pick his gf @ OG.
Den we went to Coffee Shop to wait for K to end work, when he reach we start off to Pub.
Once we reach pub, they decide to open bottle.. I dun drink so they divide the money equally themself. F say she onli left 10.. so the end they all still let her drink but nv ask her to pay.
after everything we went out to take cab, haiz no one wan to share cab with F. Me sharing cab with all the AMK ppl. She's the onli one who stay at TPY. And we decide to give her money to take cab so we asked her how much she left we top-up for her. when she take out her wallet.. we saw 2 $10, so she is like bo bian she say : Oh i still left 28, you guys no need to top-up for me le.
The rest who pay for the drink was veri angry, cos she lie to them. haiz jialat.
Sianz.. I take up another dance class.. reggea $145.. HAiz now i dun know when i can save money..*SWEAT*.. XD~
I spend alot money on dance.... start to worry... My 3G is ending around june. So i onli have class on the Fri (Hiphop + Reggea), Sat (Yoga), Sun (Bellydance).
My fren C is asking me to for wed class @ oschool (Gin - LA hiphop)...
Im interested in Sheila's Jazz tehni, I might go to sheila instead of Gin.
k lah.. I very tired liao... !!
♥ the world will turn WILD.
4:31 AM
Saturday, April 14, 2007
What's friends for ? hahaha.... For fun ? or using one of another to accompany..
sianz.... now i learning to "dun be so good" ? maybe i should say dun be so KPO.....
i realli confuss about fren this kind of thing... And now i start to be tired of it...
If you have ever meet a realli nice n good fren, must realli grad hold of it.....
I have lots of fren... but i still lookin for the one.... my bf is not the one who i can talk to... He lives in his very own world, Watever i complaint to him tell him.. He onli know how to discourage me say nasty thing to me.. Even if i cry he will tell me thing like "I hate girl cry.. can you stop crying.. Today i off, come and meet u. can you give me a better day not." I dun always cry... this time i realli cannot tahan i break down..
Indepent is the best way... dun lean on ppl too much... You will fall...
♥ the world will turn WILD.
11:42 AM
Friday, April 13, 2007
Hi.. hehe..
Realli Thanks a Millon to Jamie who help me to design & Create this blog... !
I use to write @ friendster's blog..... hehehe But now i got my very own blog wor....
All the nice nice butterflies.... And the Vain side of me... ha! (All thx to Jamie...)
I realli cant stop saying thank to jamie... !! Cos i realli love it ...
Ok. Yesterday was attending my 3G course, i miss carol's class... Sheila is Good realli good.. Very funny & cute too.. She always like to use expresstion n Body langurage to explaint wat actually she wanted from us.. Her style is hard to Catch but at least something different from other instructor.. I notice her right leg's ankle got a tat-to.. Woo.
After Class, I was waiting for the rest to go off... (only left me and 3 of them) Jazeen was talking to Sheila... Den the rest start to sit down and listen to what she talking about.. she point at me and say "I notice you can learn step quite fast, But you dun know where to put ur energy... Maybe you very stress trying to catch my style.. hahaha.. But no matter wat the energy must be there.. You thinkyou stand so far i nv notice you ah... i know ok.. ha"
Later at 7pm, meet zixin for practice @ music forest.. hoho.. need to teach her Yesterday's step.. "Na na na ~ my Hump Hump ~ Lookin @ my lump lump..." heh
Nowaday got alot hold chest steps.. Xiaoke in class (music use : Goodies) .. sheila did the same (music use : my hump).. haha.. "pls hold to ur own size.. not too big and not too small..."
K lah k lah.. i need to work liao.. (eating snake now.. heh)
♥ the world will turn WILD.
1:42 PM
Yesterday sleep around 4am ? Was watching "Ying yang lu"...
Hehehe.. Nice tat-too? i wanna have one... but alan wont let me have it de.. sianz.. 
