Saturday, October 15, 2011

hmmmm. too bored at home. LOL !!

2011 had just passed like tat, so busy and yet satisfying.
What i have done or did in 2011 ? nothing,D:

2012? will it be the same ? Hope not, gonna have new achievement.

Moving to Tampines at DEC, kindly miss all the foods at Alex.
TAMP is so far from town lah. Chopchop 530pm leave so i wont be late for my dance classes. if not, im gonna curse "NO day NO night"

Im Fish, a real Pieces....... hmmm.

Dont know what i want, always worry, scare to face things.. who dun like attention? i like but i scare of it also. easily shy and dun know why.

Dont force me to do any decision. I cant. I always have 2nd tots.. and i regret most of the times.

Reaching in my 30's in another 2.5 yr, gonna save up some $$ for my family.

And planning le.. Acty single life/Attached life is like "Yi Xian Zi Cha".

If you have a lot of friends, who is single also. Life is Ok.

But if most of them attach, and marry.... aiseh. Maybe can think of going their place to help them take of their baobao.

Take part in more hobby den you will find alot ppl are single. LOL

AND is getting more and more. No joke... esp my age group.

Receive a comment saying that im a "Mind-Flirt" person.

I cant settle down with one, i will always "if im with him.... bla bla bla" even if im attach.

I have nv really love or like a person before, maybe last time but maybe not now.

Maybe now i like Mr.A and for quite sometimes nothing happen, and mr.B appear.. and i will confused again, who to choose and who is better.. so unhealty but im like that. Haiz

Still waiting for my MAC to arrive, hate waiting. Bleah~

♥ the world will turn WILD.
3:18 PM

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

Hmmmm... Was reading all the old post since 2007. Emo ttm
Complaining ttm... Cannot take it.

Feeling emo.

Was reading my Fren old blog, emo ttm.... Somehow I feel this Person's mood n unhappiness.
Guess until now this person is still stuck in the dark shadow.
Didn't able to cross the line and come out from it.

Hope u will get better and stop being haunt by the past...
Wat is Past is past.... No point keep thinking about and can't move forward.
:D be happy and no worry.
Trust in urself and things will turn out better.

Cheers

♥ the world will turn WILD.
11:32 PM

Thursday, February 3, 2011

sianz....
Emoemoemoemoemoemo~ only emo den got mood to blog.
Guess i know too much things... and thinking starts processing.
*cough ~ lol
Friends is something important to me. Heard some storys and issue which i shouldnt know.
But somehow people will tell me! haahaa is bad and good.
Issue that make me feel un-worth ? un-loved ? un-important ?
im so affected................. maybe i should just shut her mouth.
Stand FAR FAR away from her, and im a happier person.

lol, meizhen say i look strong and independent... very envy me.
this is all outside i guess...... aiya watever !!!

as my packed rehearsal comes along, wont even have the strength and time to time so much.
Sms-ed choonhui that i wan to change item, from HH to popping item. =D
hope that i can change. -______-""

♥ the world will turn WILD.
2:33 PM

Friday, December 31, 2010

Today is the last day of 2010, toward 2011 dont have any "looking forward" feeling or watever.
Stayed at home.. downloading music, watching video and cleaning my room..

Is time to set a resolution for 2011..... or maybe not ?
as long im happier, better and stronger =)

Was thinking if i should look for bingjie for intuitive reading, is 60 per hours.
Anyone interested ? she just started her freelance so do support support.
Bingjie is mornin's wife (FYI)

last afew week i just have a new hair-cut, alot of friends say is suits me alot. LOL.
He helped me in reading cards also.. -_____- i think im just his "bai lao su".
All outcome not very good leh, gonna be single for next year den asked me to stay LOW-profile.
But i think i been very low-profile leh. LOL. den life so-so work so-so.. not much changes.
Aiya suan le. XD

Just formed a crew, name "T.H.E.M" total 6 member (3 guys,3 girls - 2 chinese,3 malay, 1 phlip)... hahaha not going to mention who in. One day u guys will see us on stage (hopefully its last..)
Having certain pressure from certain member too..... is always the problem in crew. comparing who is better.... pls - "SHUTUP and DANCE" "DANCE FIRST,THINK LATER"

And my HOD finally transfer me away from admin team to Medical team (next year March/April), looking forward for the stress.. hahaha! need to make payment, know the doctor's name,clinic's name... woooOooooo....! i know i can ! LOL..... guess need to sleep early and wake up early for new team.
The coll there all report at 830am den end work at 5pm. =D !!

Today is also Rick's last day, although i know he wont be reading this too.. but i still wan to thanks him ALOT. For being a good leader last time when im with A&H dept. When the day i decide to resign, he is the one who stopped me and talk to HOD to transfer me to a better dept (U&I). At U&I, i really learn alot.... like underwriting cases and manage HNW/FA cases. =)

And yah, Finally joined a Photographing Group (SJS). With all the Shoots and whatever.
Thanks for Maureen to inviting me there also. Have know ALOT new faces and friends, great people also.
Not much comment too.. I got new Nick name : Xiao Ke Ai. -______-; (dun understand.. dun understand and dun ask me why this nick.)

2011
Next Year will be exciting year (i guess), joining comp with T.H.E.M, moving to medical team.
and OSAKA trip with my girls... need to SAVE alot.. to shop and DANCE for 9 days.
Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee......

When age grow older, i see thing differently............ single is not a bad issue also.
Just abit Sianz when ur friends all gets attach. But as long i keep myself busy with meeting-up, nails appointment and dance. time shouldnt be hard to pass. Zzzzzz.

Shall not b****h about this Siao Chabor here, she might reading this.. Stalking me or watever.
KARMA will go after her one day. Maybe she tot whatever she have say to me is joke. acty is not,
is quite affecting me.. *&#$#%6656*@#$

Ok long post. Tired, shall sleep tonight early.
tomolo long to go...... !!! look forward for crew practice. =D

♥ the world will turn WILD.
9:26 PM

Saturday, June 12, 2010

Now waiting for my Fren to watch at amk hub.. I'm with my Fren but I decide to read Fren's blog instead of talking to them.
Is really been quite sometime since I blog. Very busy and lazy recently. Lol!!!

Busy meeting frens,dance perf and dance prac.
Have alot of photo.... But lazy to upload and blog.
Almost everyday reach home at 11plus,weekend even siong around 2 or 3 am.

Dun know to blog about because no photofor me to post.
I just bought iPhone, den went bkk!!! Must go again!!!!
Love there! Thing are really cheap and diff.

Finally finish my 10 month vocal class, 11 July will be the exam.
Our teacher ask us to invite our Fren and whoever to come n support us.
Lol.... Dun think i will ask anyone to go. So paiseh!!
Hope that I can do well...my classmate been talking about the APD.
Don't think I will able to get in due to my age.... Erm.
Female are like that, the older we grow the lesser value we have.
So scary lor...

For bf, I can't be choosy Liao. Dot dot dot!!
But i'm easily turn off de leh...... Jialat!

Okok! Good night Ppl. My phone low batt..... Lol

♥ the world will turn WILD.
10:25 PM

Sunday, March 21, 2010

Haven blog for quite sometime.
Was busy with alot alot of things... guess no one visit my blog le bah.. LOL.

CYN super busy with lots of nails Appointment but kind of disappointed about myself.
My skill didnt level up, erm.... maybe abit lah ! ABIT

Went audition for Music Forest dance pref crew and Yes, i Got in. =D
hopefully is not a bad choice by joining tat crew. D=
Busy with show and Danz ppl's recital.

Recently kind of emo, but im trying real hard to NOT to think about it.
Those NO CONFIDENT thingy, Its been hitting me for quite awhile.
And i having hard time to over come it... now not really overcome too.

i think im losting my forcus.. i dun know where to head to...
wanna Stop my Vocal class because i think i dun have enough time to practice and is realli siong for me to pay monthly 180. )= but i got another 3 month to complete the whole course.
i feel like spending more time on dance.. i wanna LEVEL UP UP UP.. but i emo again,
i keep feeling that im lousy and no confident. wat's the point of spending more time.
very confuse. any advise ? LOL..

Sometime i hate being a pierces. LOL.

Although im quite busy, but i feel empty
i think is time for me to find a bf and settle down.....
But got time to accompany him ma ? LOL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

♥ the world will turn WILD.
11:47 PM

Monday, January 4, 2010

my dad is in ICU now, each of us very worry for him...

He 脑出血 and Stroke.

Now in the family, im the only pillar.

My mum cant work, Bro is not working... schooling soon.

I gonna support the family.... so i might need to quit all my hobbies.

i dun earn alot, and thing i like to do is to ex.... whatever dance and singing classes.

i cannot imagine if my dad know that he cant work anymore.

until now, we still dun have the yong qi to tell him. Really scare he cannot accept the fact he need to face because he is such a active person. this morning still planning where to go for CYN.

i feel stress and heavy. the feeling is even worse when my mum told me, "dad like tat, guess this yr no need to celebrate CYN.."

this morning he still laughing around at home, suan me.

and now he is at ICU... now i miss his KPKP..

♥ the world will turn WILD.
1:53 AM

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

the life at U&I is really busy...... the stress is ... X__X
sometime is not about the work load, is about the people who i work under.
this aunt is....... i no comment, at all.
she dun like me to go off early... keep asking me about my life.
LOL!

its year end, one more month is 2010.
2009 to me, is really very fast although is not a very exciting month.

and im getting fatter and losing motivation to dance.
feel so lazy. sianz.........!!!

please give me more time... and aunt pls stop ? i just wan to attend some dance class once awhile...

♥ the world will turn WILD.
11:23 PM

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Me is me.... i need to be me...
Shouldnt think so much and emo about it....
Getting myself so sianZ for what......

Why cares about the others.... i just do what i wan to do.
and be happy.... =)

♥ the world will turn WILD.
10:48 PM

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

BUSY !

i tot i super long time nv update blog liao.
But i see the latest update date is 22 Sep.. so still ok lah !

I just randomly upload photo and caption lah ~

firstly, my New HAIR colour, suppose to be ash grey colour but now... all fade liao~ T__T;
By my buddy~ Zhihui, he work at Shunji matuso, ppl who interested let me know HAHAHA
do supoort support !!

AIA semi Talk at "the ROCK".... "ME is WE, WE ARE AIA...."

Dancers... a recital put it Studio wu.
i wanted to say some words.... i not good at word esp. my Ang mo is Cui one.
to gene, I love her to bits.. she's a great friend, heng tat i DID talk to you at lift.
"Gene, U improve alot realli alot... the skill and line .. esp the EXPRESSION... "
A dancer who realli enjoy dancing on stage and showing ppl.. no need much effort u can show alot " =D
the rest of the dancer that i know.. esp from DnD....
Peishan's BIG smile on stage, Jen's keep dropping's off-shoulder (can see her half arm liao), Fion's Confident's look.

Recently keep going out at night.. till next day morning then reach home.
FEEL so YOUNG ~ Supper supper , drink drink , Chat chat , Movie movie , Ktv Ktv~
but recently start to feel tired ... guess is the AGE !!!

This is my recently Sunday, Vocal at 12 to 2pm... then PA dance at 4 to 6 pm...
and is making my Weekend pass even FASTER....

PinkRoom School CUP 2009, erm.... sad to say,
I didnt win anything, too nervous.. and too last min. BUT really thanks ANNA for helping as my Model.
She have a Super NICE finger.

My Mix Media Piece.......................... M33

i wan to be happy ~ And i know i can do it with all my friends around.

Sorry about the emo me.. haiz .

♥ the world will turn WILD.
10:14 PM

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Aiyo.. i cant stand myself....
why am i keep thinking those unnecessary 's thing and problem...

Stop thinking !!!

*SWEAR to herself...... !!*

i need to be more optically and be happier... !

I need to be on my own...

suddenly felt that, everyone starts to dislike cos me is ME...
or is it i really being too emo & quiet ?

i hate being me ...

♥ the world will turn WILD.
11:16 PM

Thursday, September 3, 2009

Its SEPTEMBER.......

gonna set goal for this month !

-Popping course 2
-Back to Bike Prac

-BUY sofa BED !!!!!!!!!!

♥ the world will turn WILD.
1:18 AM

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Super long post... about what im doing recently.. HAHAHAHA
super busy with everything!

beening cycling every friday night!!
出发时间：11PM, so most of the time i reach home is like 5 or 6 am.
one of the night is shufen's birthday, have give her a susprise!!!

u nv see wrong.. we having MAC as SUPPER !!

random photo from different night!

YS dam..=D

AND my nails deko finally here!

Do not DROOL on the ice cream !!

- - - - - - - - - -
on 22 Aug, DANCEititude at NTU....!!!

on 23 Aug, at afternoon, went to forcus music to sign up vocal class, went thur a "audition".
the instructor is Jeff. dun know if he is good anot.
this school even have contac, so scary...
if i wan to quit still need to give one month notice if not, i need to continue pay the fee.
went to ROCK's workshop!! damn cool !
still waiting Joot to upload the pic and video on facebook... T___T;
After that went to meet fen and her fen for dimsum! the location is at Mustafa..
i was abit lost awhile walking... guess where did i walk pass.

MY DREAM SCHOOL. LASELLE!

LITTLE india !! XD
after Dimsum, we went to Ktv pub to sing.

there's goes my Sat & sunday =)

and one special day! NATIONAL DAY with my babes.
to sentosa ~

My Fav Pic !! HEEE

this SOFA bed i saw at ikea !!!!!!!!!!!

$799 !!!!

♥ the world will turn WILD.
12:06 AM

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

a close fren of mine,her mum just passed away, its sudden.
cancer last stage. age 46.

Just attended the wake, i know she trying to act strong.
see her swollen eyes, she must been crying for few night.

is really sad when someone u loved passed away so suddenly.

precious the loves one.... esp parent.
no matter how much they caned when we are young...
no matter what they do.. scold lah nag lah...
this is all for us.

spend more time with them when we can.
dont make urself regret.

♥ the world will turn WILD.
12:14 AM

Friday, August 14, 2009

its been 1 yr i nv talk to her.... and now she is back
with all the NIGHTMARE....... HOW ?

All the super depress emails and all the Super annyoing SMS..!!!
HELP me pls !

all the childish email and sms... all about fren fren fren.
askine my all the super weird question.
I already in a very harsh tone, And she keep asking me....
when i always talk to her in this kind of bad manner.

wat the PROBLEM is with HER ?

♥ the world will turn WILD.
12:51 AM

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

a understanding boyfriend is really hard to find.......
i guess i gonna be single forever......

i guess i start to getting use as a underwriter, hopefully... everything will be fine.
Complaint will stop coming in...

trying to adjust everything.....................

♥ the world will turn WILD.
12:46 AM

Monday, August 10, 2009

stupid blogger... siao siao again... T___T;

♥ the world will turn WILD.
10:20 PM

Monday, August 3, 2009

Tonight gonna be a long POST.. With boring photos...

Look @ the Ice CREAM... damn nice lor! saw andy that day also.........
waffles with 2 scoop of ice cream around $7.40 !! *Dun drool on ur PC hor....*

-Thanks KaiBin for The BIG and HUGE Durian!!! she got a Durian TREE behind her house..
When is Durian fest, she always can hear the durian dropping from the Tree..!! so COOL!
Next time i wan a Watermelon tree.. MUHAHAHA!

- NDP !!! Preview ~ THANKS for jenielle for getting ticket from her Bf!
I think we 3 (me, Jen & Joanna) really enjoy that night, HAHAHA now then i know i LOVE singapore !!
SO STAND UP FOR SPORE PEOPLE ...!!!

- My desk in my room, Planning to get SOFA bed.. T___T;;;
Busy busy busy ~ need to practice nail art more... Competition is coming Real soon!
need to look for 2 model, 1 for manicure and another 1 for extension.

- U dun think is TOY hor, I found this cockcoacks middle of my bed room's FLOOR lor.
When i Notice, is already DEAD.

Yesterday (sun), my dad suddenly Bought Print... AND he Painted my WALL.
And now my wall no longer grey liao... i spended whole day to clean my room..

Its been 2 week i nv go PA le, Feel so bad and gulity,
And my Bike Prac........... T___T sunday suppose to have class but i skipped.

I dont understand why my confident always fails me...
I dont understand why my Emo always take control of every thing...
Can i run away from them ? Run far away from them....
I know so much thing, i know i can do it...
But fierce,scare and nervous always take control of everything..
and i dont know how to over come them....

i want to escape from them.... far far away from them.

♥ the world will turn WILD.
11:54 PM

Friday, July 31, 2009

am i realli tat irraiting ? stupid ? useless ?

i feel un-loved.

emo is back.

work is busy, cannot dance cannot breathe...
having headache.

complaints.....

i miss everything like the past when everyone are together.
dance supper dinner outing....

miss dance so much. anyone can understand ?
almost every fri and sat got nails appointment, sound good.
but no time to dance.

feel so emo and down.

where am i ? wat am i ?

whatever......

everything so far away...

maybe im just think too much.

♥ the world will turn WILD.
12:34 AM

Monday, July 27, 2009

So weird.....

♥ the world will turn WILD.
12:12 AM

Saturday, July 11, 2009

recently super busy..... realli busy with WORK.!!
and Bike prac and Nails Appointment.. =)

YESH!!! Finally have pass prac 1 and now is the beginning of prac 2...
means... ANOTHER nightMARE...

Now the module change le.... now prac 2 only.
learn plank,and i keep falling down from the PLANK. The 1st fall realli scare me...
take me quite some time to clam down.. my head hit on the kerb (heng got helmet)
i not sure if i should continue cos is realli quite hard....
*haiz*

went to watch TBG'09 with the girls... the whole concert.
is GOOD.... i love COOL mint so much.. they all are so young and small, their energy no one can beat them.
the group from HK is cool and chill... recently dance style got so many popping techni involve.

Kind of lazy to attend dance classes due to work.
work as underwriter is stress.. gonna be alert always.
i kanna afew complaint le, really like heart attack !

Today is sat, suppose to go for classes.......... but i only wake up at 5 pm.
Li hai bah... Hahaha!! and follow my parent to their gathering..
they havent meet each other for around 30 yr... damn long la =X
quite bored, cuz nothing much to chat.... only keep asking me..
why nv go find bf...... den sat wont be so bored. O____Oa

Look like tomb hor.... haha

all the bo liao pics taken just now, at east coast park food village.

this moth, found it outside my window... T___T
the size is a palm size..

Okokok Going to cheer to get some coffee and start my self- practice for nail art.
and gonna start doing all the nail tips for my customer. =)

"i want to dance and do watever i like.. like no one watching..."
Time now : 1.37am.

and YAH, finally got the video from uncle ming...
MLB's "黑" and "成熟", nice leh.. who got this song "mp3 format".
Send me leh.. moondevil_84@hotmail.com HAHAHA !!! Gan Xia ~
nothing much to comment about the video, not bad.
i like the way nic fall to the sea... and the path with lots of TV...
story line so-so only bah........ erm ~ ! but i realli miss the time when everyone got together..
MLB all nice guys... All the best to them..

♥ the world will turn WILD.
11:50 PM